Sunday, April 18, 2010

You Win, PMS!

And that is the reason why at 10.50pm, I'm munching from a bag of Ruffles Sour Cream and Onions potato chips. Arrrghhh so much for healthy eating, but this is a once a month affair, and I can't resist the temptation.


Sour cream and onion.. mmmm reminds me of Pringles too!
As you bite into it, the salty taste of sour cream.. ahhhh blissful! 
It says 0% trans fat, but this isn't the healthiest food around.. so indulge in moderation..

Ok, if you didn't behave (like me now haha), flush it with a cup of warm water yeh. Don't say I didn't warn ya, you could wake up with sluggish skin. 

But I'm going to sleep with a bottle of Lennox FirmUp. :)

Wednesday, April 14, 2010


Its been another long day today. C-h-a-o-t-i-c at work, really I'm praying things will return to normal soon. 

Managing people opens up an entirely new perspective for me. Its no longer how good am I / how efficient am I / how well I perform my job function. Its now how well can my team members function and support the business. 

How should I juggle between keeping my peeps happy, yet at the same time meeting the business needs?

Hardwork, and mindset shift. And pots of patience and an open heart.

I have an employee who is under-performing. As the lead, I am responsible to see where are the gaps, and I don't fancy honey coating my feedback. The Confused is well aware that he is under immense scrutinization by The Boss after several complaints made against him by another team.

I took him in as I believe he should be given a proper chance to learn and prove himself. But yes, indeed he is prone to make mistakes. And this cannot go on, unless he wants to be kicked out; and I know he wants this job.

How do you deliver the message that says you're not doing a good job; but without tearing him apart? Tactfulness. Yeah, easier said than done buddy.

This is the first time my peep broke down in front of me. And there and then I knew he really needs help. His confidence are shattered and he still mind about what others feedback-ed on him before. He is shouldering the burden of not letting go alone. 

When you are not happy at work, you can't perform.
When you do not understand your job function, you can't perform.
When your confidence is in pieces and you cannot pick them up, you simply can't perform.

With 3 teams to focus on - I need all the sleep I can get to take on this new challenge. Welcome to the world of people managing, Foxy!

When I wake up tomorrow, I'm sure The Confused would be a better person :)

I Divorced Thee...


The Gym and I have parted.. finally after 7 years. As I signed the termination letter, there was still a hint of hesitation. Do I really wanna leave? After all these years?

I'm so used to my usual locker, my usual treadmill, rowing machine, abs shaper, the studio.. and then there are the shower rooms, that huge blast of warm shower...

So I'm gonna leave all that? 
Hmm how does an extra of RM90 a month sounds like? Cool eh?
It could go into my holiday fund (think Japan!), a manicure or a new nail color, a new pack of mask or even an extra skin goodies? Not bad eh?

Considering:
- I haven't visited The Gym in more than 3 months. The Work has taken 13 hours of my waking time. I no longer have the mental and physical strength to drive to The Gym. 

- The journey to The Gym take about 50mins with the after work traffic. Crazy if you ask me. You'd say I could fill that 50 with Kegels first.. but still.. 

- My favourite Yoga teacher no longer teach there. Awww sad, but I really only adore yoga as my form of workout. Driving 50 mins to The Gym so that I could run on the treadmill is just plain insane! At the same time paying 90 bucks!

So yeah, its final. Goodbye The Gym!

I'll remember our better times.. like the meeting 3-4 times a week. Like we did constant yoga and balance classes. Like the kickboxing lesson. Like chilling out with the papers and a cup of tea :)

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

I Cried...

Tonight, I cried... cried in the car park watching my new friend eating in joy.

I came home after a long day at work. Upon getting out of my car, I noticed a stray dog sitting up nearby, greeting me with a wagging tail. Its skin was badly infected, and it kept scratching and at the same time wagged its tail vigorously. 

While waiting for The BF to pick up his bag, I watched this little stranger. It was sitting up very nicely now.. and its' eyes sparkled. I have no idea why, but I thought it looked happy to see me.. This is the first time I came across a stray so friendly. 

I got a water bottle and took a few steps closer, and it wasn't at all got aggressive. Instead it tried to come to me.. I poured some on the floor, but it didn't want any. I knew it was hungry.. but I had no food with me :( 

As I made my way back up home, I kept thinking of "Sparkly". I felt guilty for leaving just like that... The next thing I knew, I dropped my bags at home, and took out a plastic container. I poured some dog food and then head off to the mini mart downstairs. Bought a can of tuna in water (thought this is healthier than curry chicken?) just in case Sparkly isn't used to eating dog food.

I went back to the carpark but Sparkly wasn't there. I regretted leaving earlier.. but I kept searching and I saw it! Towards the end of the carpark, Sparkly was lying down, looking kinda bored and sad. In an instant, it stood up, though groggily and all I noticed was its wagging tail :))


Gently pushed the container towards it, and Sparkly loved it! Looking at how happy Sparkly was eating its food, I felt tears streaming down. I sobbed.. and sobbed and sobbed. I felt happy, sad all at the same time. I opened the can of tuna and gave it out as well.. Treat for you Sparkly. His tail never stopped wagging.. "Take good care my friend, love ya and hope the best for you.." 


I left before passing cars noticed this crazy woman sobbing.


Will I ever meet Sparkly again? Will it be okay? Water? Its next meal?
I feel very happy just remembering the encounter :)

Would you do the same too if you were in my shoes?


I love you Sparkly, and hope you get well soon and stay happy always. *hugs*

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