Sunday, October 7, 2012
I know it does to me!
Sigh, it is a great Sunday..
- I get to sleep in; I mean really till 2.30pm :P
- It was raining most of the day
- Loads of TV dramas to watch
- No chores waiting for me (well laundry can wait)
- There is the iPad and magazines and books
I actually started the day with a cup of oatmeal.. and it felt okay.
But I got hungry like 5 seconds after that, and conveniently grabbed a packet of chips.
Wrong move! Halfway thru I started feeling like crap.
Downed some water, and then 2 oranges - The Husband teased me about compensating bad food with good ones after. Duh! But I realised he is right - I have this really bad habit of taking junk food when I'm home and not cooking. I gave in to hunger pangs in 3 seconds and will grab anything within my reach.
So then I ordered pizza and made myself a cup of coffee...
The coffee was a mistake too. I should know myself better, that I couldn't really tolerate coffee. They upset my tummy and more often than not, makes me wuzzy.
But on cold rainy days, the thought of hot coffee is really tempting. Especially on a weekend. Anytime before 6pm is fine, as I don't want to risk being awake. I haven't really experienced being kept awake by coffee before, but do not like risking. On work days, getting a good night's sleep is vital. Or I'd be a crappy boss at work..
Look at it! So creamy and naiseeeee!
With these...
Anyway, I think this many times of feeling crappy after food is enough. I ought to really just eat healthily.. at least most of the time..
I doubt I would ever give up pizza or the occassional coffee (I'm not a coffee person by the way - I think its just a mental temptation). But probably once a month wouldn't kill.
Back to more fruit juices and veggies..
Monday, January 30, 2012
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
As a perfection-driven leader, I find it difficult to deal with incompetent employee. "Tough" probably is a more suitable adjective.
When a person boasts about being a senior, aspiring to be a leader; but instead possesses the mentality of a teenager - pushing back responsibilities, holding grudges, refusing to accept constructive critisim - this irks me to hell.
Mentally I would have slammed the brain out of him/her. If I give in to my 5-seconds-of-devilish thoughts time, I would have shown him the way out. Come back when you've finally grow up. But I don't own the company.
Truth is - Not possible. That is what bosses do, not a leader.
And my goal is to be a leader, and that x years down the road, I want to look back and not have an ounce of regret in me.
I don't intend to be a leader who:
- stamps her feet and bang her table in anger
- or throw my mouse / pen / stapler / whatever reachables to hint others that she is having a bad day
- yell "fuck you bitch" during a con-call (muted or not) just because someone does not agree with her.
- compliments herself for something "great" when the truth is, she was being delusional. She did not want to know the truth about what people think of her.
- updates all her frustrations (gosh pimples / that idiot / sick / having a gossip season) into Facebook every 5 seconds.
- write to peers smirking about how my ex-teams have no more talented people (well, if one is talented - your manager would want to keep you).
So those are what makes it so mentally challenging for me.
Today. Yesterday. A week ago. Ever since I inherited some gems.
I'm not hating what I'm going through. But I am aware that I am human, and I have flaws. Sometimes it is just not my day to be a good leader. Sometimes, it is just me and how I feel (at heart of course).
Old dog doesn't learn new tricks. Well here is a challenge for me. I'm working on taming the old dog (which unfortunately reports to me). Enjoying the learning process, but I need a channel to rant and then move on.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
... irks me to death.
Disorientated, self doubt then kicks in.
Negativity, they rush in waves.. hush.
Pessimist - time to replace the queen.
What do I want, really?
Its time.. its here..
Something is about to change!
