Life of a Foxy Siren

As a perfection-driven leader, I find it difficult to deal with incompetent employee. "Tough" probably is a more suitable adjective.

When a person boasts about being a senior, aspiring to be a leader; but instead possesses the mentality of a teenager - pushing back responsibilities, holding grudges, refusing to accept constructive critisim - this irks me to hell.




Mentally I would have slammed the brain out of him/her. If I give in to my 5-seconds-of-devilish thoughts time, I would have shown him the way out. Come back when you've finally grow up. But I don't own the company.






Truth is - Not possible. That is what bosses do, not a leader.


And my goal is to be a leader, and that x years down the road, I want to look back and not have an ounce of regret in me.


I don't intend to be a leader who:


- stamps her feet and bang her table in anger


- or throw my mouse / pen / stapler / whatever reachables to hint others that she is having a bad day


- yell "fuck you bitch" during a con-call (muted or not) just because someone does not agree with her.


- compliments herself for something "great" when the truth is, she was being delusional. She did not want to know the truth about what people think of her.


- updates all her frustrations (gosh pimples / that idiot / sick / having a gossip season) into Facebook every 5 seconds.


- write to peers smirking about how my ex-teams have no more talented people (well, if one is talented - your manager would want to keep you).



So those are what makes it so mentally challenging for me.
Today. Yesterday. A week ago. Ever since I inherited some gems.


I'm not hating what I'm going through. But I am aware that I am human, and I have flaws. Sometimes it is just not my day to be a good leader. Sometimes, it is just me and how I feel (at heart of course).

Old dog doesn't learn new tricks. Well here is a challenge for me. I'm working on taming the old dog (which unfortunately reports to me). Enjoying the learning process, but I need a channel to rant and then move on.


So, my incompetent gem:- be prepared. More to come. More polishing for both you and me.